“Not My Home”

1.3.05

My life is so hectic now that they’ve completely wrecked it.

They may have won this battle, but the war’s not over yet, cuz now I’m your biggest threat.

It was wrong for you to change my life when I’m stuck in it without a choice, now I get sick just at the sound of your voice.

You’ve got me feelin’ so paranoid, these feelings I only wish I could avoid.

But I’m not giving in. I’m gonna make you taste just what you been doin’ to me. Then maybe you’ll see just how I wanted things to be, and why it means so much to me.

Surely you can see all my pain bleeding out through my eyes, as it washes away whats left of my disguise.

You need to remember this is my life you’re interfering with too. So you should take that into consideration with everything you do.

Too long I’ve watched my life go down and not done anything about it, and it happens more than I’d like to admit.

I cant wait to be free and put all this anger and pain behind me. Once I’m gone, I’m gone, and you ain’t gonna be able to find me.

Once I’m gone, I’m never coming back to this place, I wont ever want to see your face.

They say home is where the heart is, but that ain’t here, not where I have to live in so much fear.

Not where people don’t care about how I feel and act like my feelings aren’t real.

Not where people ignore me and act like I’m not there. Not with people who just don’t care.

This is not my home, cuz here I’ve always been alone.