Why is it I’m never satisfied with all that I have?  I always want something different. I get what I want, am happy with it for a  while then want something different.  I want it with someone else, in a different place or both.  But really everything I ever wanted is right in front of my face and I’ve already got it.  Why do I forget that?  I’ve got the most wonderful, loving husband ever. He works hard for me and our baby and even helps out with him when he gets home from work.  Don’t know of many other guys that would actually do that.  He loves and respects me and how I feel, is gentle and never hurtful and isn’t afriad that showing that he loves me will make people think he’s any less of a man.(like some guys I’ve met) He listens to me when I just need to talk. He truely and genuinly loves and cares about his family. I couldn’t have asked for a better husband to spend the rest of my life with.  No one could ask for anything else.  The only thing I’d change is I wish he didn’t have to be gone at work so much but we’re working on that.  He’s trying to think of something he can do from home that will make money.  So why do I still frivolously wonder what it’d be like with someone else?  It couldn’t be any better, it’d be worse because I’ve already got everything a girl could want and the best husband in the world.  Sometimes I have to remind myself of that.  Like I’ve said in some of my other posts, it’s easy to take the things and people in your life for granted.  My husband has given me the life I dreamed about when I was little, and I can’t wait to spend the rest of our lives together. 

Something I’ve realized recently is how important time really is. Once it’s gone, there’s no getting it back or changing how it was spent. It’s priceless. Giving our time to each other is way more valuable than any gift money could buy. When I look back and think about someone I wish I had spent more time with, I don’t think about any of the things they bought me, I think about how we spent our time together. The time you spend with someone is how you’re remembered. Also, time is short. We often put things and people aside thinking we’ll have time for them later. Then time goes by so fast, and you’ve forgotten about them. It happens to the best of us. We all get caught up in other things in life like hobbies, work, ect. Sure all the money you get from working so much is nice, but it can’t buy back people or the time you wish you would have spent with them. We should all just remember to slow down and spend more time with the people we love. Hobbies and work will always be there, people will not.

One thing I’ve learned the past couple days is to never take for granted the things in your life. They can be ripped away so quickly, leaving you with a gaping hole in your life that you’re not quite sure what to do with. I unfortunately had to learn this the hard way. It’s so easy to take things for granted and push them aside assuming they’ll still be there the next day. Most things are only in your life for a short while anyways. So while they are there, you should pay attention to them. You never know when they’ll be gone.

Why do I always feel so sad when I hear the sound of his car driving off down the street every morning? It’s the worse feeling ever! Even though I know it’s only for a short while. It still feels like the biggest piece of me is missing. So I laid there though what it would be like if for some reason he never came back. I honestly wouldn’t even know how to function anymore. There would be no one to have dinner ready for anymore, no one to clean the house for anymore, no one to look pretty for and shower and smell good for anymore. Therefore, really no reason to even get out of bed anymore. But what’s worse is there would be no hugs and kisses to look forward to anymore.

Imagining it made it feel so real and it made me sad. Then I thought about all the ‘not so nice’ things I do towards him. Not necessarily to be mean or hurt him, but yeah. Things like getting mad that something wasn’t put away in it’s spot after it was used. Or getting short with him for the clothes in his drawer always being messy after I folded them all nice. Just stupid little things like that that have little or no relevance in the whole scheme of life. If the life I imagined ever did come true, I’d wish I never cared so much about those little things and spent more time caring about things that actually mattered. Things like making sure I did little things that made him feel good instead of dragging him down. Things like hiding little love notes for him in his lunch box so he finds it at work, or surprising him with his favorite homemade chocolate chip cookies for no reason.

Living with the regret of, ‘I hope he knew I loved him,’ would kill me . So I wanna make it so I have no regrets and I know that he knows I love him.

What is love? Many people try to define love. I don’t think there is any one right answer, I believe what love means is different for everyone. But there are things that love is definitely not. There’s a popular song out right now by the Gym Class Heroes that says, “…I mean she even cooks me pancakes
And Alka Seltzer when my tummy aches
If that ain’t love then I don’t know what love is..” and, “… I love it when she calls my phone
She even got her very own ringtone
If that ain’t love then I don’t know what love is …”

Those are all good things, but I know I would take anyone Alka Seltzer if they needed it and there’s a ton of people in my phone that have their own ringtone. So yeah, I’d say that you obviously do not know what love is. Those are things normal people and friends just do. Love makes you do things for that person that you normally wouldn’t do for anyone else. For example, driving hours just to be with that person for less than an hour and then having to drive back. That’s what love does. Not, “Oh, I love you so much and to show you, I gave to a different ringtone than everyone else.” I would honestly be offended if that’s all my love meant to someone.

But yeah, this post was not meant to bash the Gym Class Heroes. Although I never liked that song anyways…